Well, here is a corner for me to rant on something or complain beside facebook and twitter haha..so dun blame me being hardcore complainer or ranter! LOL
11th November 2010
When everything ended, it actually juz a beginning. When i tod everything goes well, it doesnt seem so. I guess i am still a very sensitive person. I am actually jealous..but i know i dun have the right to jealous. I cant do anything on it and she still have the choice. However, I still decided to be her side, though it meant to hurt me so much..i know i am stupid..but if i dun do that, i wouldnt know whether she is worthy to wait or not...i m not gonna regret wif my choice..i gotta bear the pain until it come to the end
2nd November 2010
Just one week..but it was very sweet to me. Though time is short, but i m happy tat some1 pamper on me. I m glad tat i actually met u. i hope i wun regret to let u go...
sometime life reli can pull me down to the bottom of hell..i m crying now when typing this shit..i m sad to let her go but i have no choice..sometimes i ever tod that it would b awesome if i reli got hit right on my head and die on my car accident 3 months ago. At least i dun need to face this cruel world..
now, i need time for myself..
27th October 2010
it have been almost a month since i rant here. Alot stuff happened recently. I am unhappy but yet..i m force to show my smile in front everyone. After dating wif my dear for almost 4 years..i nv expect v broke up. Reason? she said she cant take it anymore on long distance relationship. But i believe there are others reason behind it..could it b bcoz i went drunk n hug other girls during event? or bcoz i call other girls as sayang? i have no idea..somehow i believe it was mainly my fault.
speak about other girls, recently i have been getting close to somebody..who resemble my gf alot..of coz not in term of appearance but attitude. I do admit i fall for her..n d feeling getting stronger since i broke up. But, i do doubt myself a second that who is she i treating as? as her ownself or my ex-gf? Alot ppl ask me go ahead on her but i was afraid. What if i treat her as a replacement of my ex? it wouldn't fair for her..plus, she got her own guy already..though they are having some prob. I dun feel like interrupt it..
i am trying to treat her as who she is..b4 i doing any regret action. But of coz, if her problem wif her guy was fix, i'll b glad and happy for her. I believe he'll treat her better than i do..
29th September 2010
damn, after spending 4 days in Singapore, i gotta pay the price! i mean the consequence. Relax 4 days cause me suffer few weeks. Work are loaded ;(. Not to mention i wanna rush 4 post for Digi iPhone 4 contest. Somehow i desperately wanna win this gorgeous phone. Guess i got influences from EngKiat who keep talking iphone wif us everyday in class.
Not to mention tmrw i m having dinner with my YC Gang. They wanna celeb Andrienne & my birthday since my bday is a day after her. Frank being very excited and suggested TAO. sigh i dun reli happy wif it since i am penniless now. I dun even know how i going to pay it tmrw. Guess i need dig out money from my ptptn ;(..sigh..and i dun reli eager to celeb my birthday..i guess i reli too bz until no feeling on it
21th September 2010
OMG OMG! i m going singapore i m going! reli thanks to Nuffnang giving me this opportunity again! i been ranting to my gf tat i wanna travel to SG again badly n now my wish come true :D..i believe i nv choose wrong advertising company, nuffnang still d best. It doesnt matter wether i am in their main list or backup..at least i m still given d chance. I dun need consistent surprise, once in a while is good :D
16th September 2010
My project have been delayed to 1 week. I mean it was behind the schedule for a week. Thanks to 1 of my mate from Concept Design side. The person who i dun look up most. She totally screw the design and drag us down. Fuck her!
In the same time, i decided not to borrow any of my stuff to any1 anymore. I am tired being kind. Lend some1 some stuff yet need c his/her face..sial..i gonna b selfish from now onward. No matter what. And i dun like ppl decided stuff for me. For eg "we gather here, then 3 of us can sit jackie car XD"..yes, this is d most irritating words i hate to hear. say me cocky or lansi or whatever, this is my rule. U wan my stuff or something from me? follow my rules!
12th September 2010
just come back yum cha wif jeffro, alex, victoria and jian. Stuff can b happen randomly and sudden. Vic & sam just broke up. Without any valid reason. I guess when some1 feeling change, nth can save back.
Anyway i got myself a gakkenflex. Heart it so much but no chance to test it yet. Looking for iso800 film roll ;)
8th September 2010
i think i am like small kid who keep wanting a new toy..;(
been wanted to have a Blackbird, TLR cam very long..n now when i take a look again..i wan it so badly T_T..great..who gonna get it for me as my birthday present? sigh
Yes it was the same camera use by Tsukasa from Kamen Rider Decade ;D
7th September 2010
Screw it! I think i gonna cancel my Sigma zoom lens wishlist! And replace it into Nikon 55-300mm!!
yupz it is a new lens lauch by Nikon recently. What attract me most was it come with VR! Say YAY TO VR! :D and the price wasn't as expensive as expected, only around 1.2k. I think the price is cool since Nikon 55-200mm lens cost around 900+. arr i wan..who gonna get it for me? ;(..i know i rant like a girl now fuck my life!
In addition i am pretty greedy recently. Been hook by the new Ipod touch 4th Gen.
i am not a big fans of iphone. But to the less expensive itouch yes ;D..i am not greedy, juz gimme 8gb will do :(..sigh..when money gonna fall into my head for free ;(
6th September 2010
opss, past 12am adi. Anyway just back from JJ Lin super tour from TS. Courtesy to Joshua of coz ;). Got a red zone tics and i tod it was a special zone. But ended up is the most back..sigh..thanks god wailoon borrowed me his 70-300mm lens. So this lens save my ass of the day! Same goes to my gf Lumix TZ-10 wif capability to zoom until 300mm ;)..yes i use 2 camera LOL
Well, this incident cause me think that i should get a zoom lens as back up for such event. I actually dun have much lens i wan. As for now i m using Tammy 17-50, is more than enuf for my general usage. But once in a while some lens are handy ;)
here are the list of lens i wanted and i think more than enuf for me to use.
Nikon 50mm f1.8
Tokina 11-16mm f2.8
Sigma 70-300mm
if i m rich enuf i'll forget about d budget zoom lens and goes for this..
Nikon 70-200mm f2.8
but to be honest, i rather work wif budget. I am not rich and i m not using my camera to earn. So i shouldnt goes beyond the border. Well, hopefully next year i can own this 3 lens wif a new body ;)
4th September 2010
so, i m borrowing vic my DSLR. she need it for Matta fair which is on 3rd~5th sept. by right if only borrowing for 3 days i m fine wif it. However i m generous enuf (ok mayb i m too overmake it) and i borrow her 1 weeks earlier since she wanna learn how to use it. I was expecting her to return back to me on 5th sept as she said earlier when taking from me. Then she said since she working on weekday n she bz, she'll return to me on 10th sept. Tats mean almost 2 weeks. I am ok wif it since i dun reli need it much since dun have any event to shoot.
i felt tat my life without my cam wif me is like lost something. i even jokingly told her once tat ask her come setapak find me for dinner while returning my cam as well on 5th sept coz i tod she was going together wif sam by car and PWTC wasnt far from setapak. But they are taking train n now complain to me tat taking train to setapak is fucking far. Ok i m fine. I was telling her is ok since i juz lend a d3000 from wailoon for tmrw, sun n mon event. I told her it would b better if i able to attend those event wif my D60 but she response me "dun alwiz ask me return can? if i have car i sure return to u. i dun have car"..ok i seriously dislike this kind of attitude. Mayb she was emo on tat time but tat attitude not suppose to throw on my face. Well not d 1st day i knew her but tat word seriously make me very unhappy. Not even an apologize after d word to my face, i have to pretend like nth happen. First thing first, i need my cam back coz i need it for event though currently i m using friend 1, but i dun feel like taking his cam so long. 2nd, i nv agree to borrow my cam for tat long, juz 9 days under our consent but she said she might bz n might need return it on 10th sept, which make total 2 weeks. 3rd, i din even demand anything from her for borrowing my cam though i jokingly said belanja me makan (or she sukarela said belanja me). so, is that an appropriate attitude to throw on my face?
i guess in future is hall start avoiding borrowing my cam to others ppl. not i dun trust any1, but prevent better than cure rite? Plus, i might busy wif my studies n work, but it doesnt i dun have time for event. i m still human, need chill and relax. so whenever there are event i think i could make it, i'll go for it. like this coming event for tmrw, sun n monday (opss, today is sat adi)
2nd September 2010
Just back from Victoria Birthday celebration in Zouk cafe. Abit feel like slap myself for drinking 2 calrberg that cost me RM23 including taxes. Yes, people who know me well should know i am that type dun waste money like tat ;(..oh well, what happen is happen. Anyway Happy Birthday to Victoria :)..have it been 2 years since v knew each other? i guess not yet..soon to b 2 years XP
meanwhile i m driving my uncle car, Atos for temporarily since my Baby Vivi not yet back. Kinda not use to it especially the stereng. Kinda heavy compare to my Vivi, thus when turn corner i need extra energy. Well hope will get use to it in few days times. I dun even dare to speed wif this car..since it wasnt my car and the brake not as good as new.
Last nite went to watch Cats & Dog movie wif Shannon. Manage to catch up wif bloggers i nv met b4 during dinner but i am totally lost. It seem like i kinda an Oil who couldnt mix wif water. I guess prisoning myself this few months make me kinda dunno, dun dare or anti social. Well. life sucks.
speak about prison, it'll lead to my study. Today was first day of my practical training. Well is sort of like an intern. We got our project briefing. well, v gotta do an Ads to promote 1Malaysia. I bet alot of u gimme "HAH!!?" response. Well, at least tats every1 response when first heard it. Like it onot, v gotta do it. The ads will b air on TV in 2~3 months times. If u happen to see it, no hesitate to comment and lemme know what do u think about it ;). In the same time, my team of this project are consisted 5 members and 1 of them..had a bad attitude. Reli reli bad. I dunno why tat felor wanna degrade into an asshole. The egoness is too high until self tod is d best and criticism us. Fuck you! i said b4, i gonna kick whoever ass tat drag down our team work. now, 8 weeks survival start. Wish me luck ;)
1st September 2010
Finally done changing few navigation bar on my blog. Been roll on bed for an hours and unable to sleep thus i decided to renovate my blog abit. Been thinking few issue that happen this few days. Namewee been arrested, Mike been hit and rob by Malays and 2 chinese photographer been hit by malays as well on the merdeka eve night. So whats wrong wif our country now? is really racist cause it or those people nowdays degraded themself into asshole? I use to think Malaysia is wonderful country..oh well tats my naive thinking when i was young. Now i open my eye and see this wasnt an ideal country. Nth is perfect indeed but perfect is possible. I hope everyone will open their mind that located in ass for long period and save this country while it still possible. 1MALAYSIA? yes can be achieve..if every1 reli using their brain to think, not ass.
Meanwhile, i think i gonna join Nuffnang Vaseline Party. It was on 2nd October. Tats it if i get invitation :D. A party for my birthday eve, not bad rite? :)..this thursday, my practical training gonna start. It was a team work. Honestly person like me doesnt like been drag down by teammate. Thus i believe teamwork are important. It would b awesome if every1 in my team think that. I swear that i gonna kick those ass who drag down our performance. Gotta do my best and prove my value & existence in this project. I know i can do it! I am not gonna give up my dream..
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